Brakes for Nothing - Lisa Tevdal - ebook

Brakes for Nothing ebook

Lisa Tevdal

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Opis

In a world of crime, lies and destruction a girl is born. Something as innocent as a child should never be touched by the evil that this underworld has in its jaws. Watch this sweet, innocent girl growing up, where every one lies, steals and kills to keep the power they have. What happens when old sins and old lies come out of the darkness and how will an innocent life be spared the pain and horrors of the life of the Mafia Her name is Jade 'Charlie' Valentino and she is born into this world this is her story.

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To my Family and Friends how encourages me to write and listen to me when I need to bounce ideas off.

Brakes for nothing is a fiction story something’s in the book are not completely accurate to the real world…

Contents

Chapter One – Reaper

Chapter Two – Jennie

Chapter Three – Antonio/Leo

Chapter Four – Akira

Chapter Five – Chevy

Chapter Six – Reaper

Chapter Seven – Vlad

Chapter Eight – Ivan

Chapter Nine – Armando

Chapter Ten – Keith

Chapter Eleven – Reaper

Chapter Twelve – Giuliano

Chapter Thirteen – Jade/Charlie

Chapter Fourteen – Jade/Charlie

Chapter Fifteen – Armando

Chapter Sixteen – Jade/Charlie

Chapter One

Reaper

I'm sitting here in my bar waiting for my darling to walk in, we have been together for years now and I have never been happier then I’m with her. For the last month I have been thinking about my future or Our future, My darling and Mine future. I bought the ring that I have been looking at for the last five months… I bought the Vest that some Old ladies are carrying last week, and I planned to make tonight special for her. Tonight, is going to be the Night I make her my true old Lady. I’m going to ask her in-front of the whole Club to be my old lady and my Queen… I have plan something for the Night back at our house, the house I bought for her. I sit and drink the beer the prospect gave me a few min ago, I drink with my best friend we are both waiting for Our Girl’s to walk in thru the door.

I close my eyes as I drink the cold beer… I close my eyes to remember when I meet her three years ago stranded in the middle of the night with a car that had broken down, her Red hair was short back then not as long and flowing that she has now. I Remember her standing at the side of the Road with nothing but the cloths on her back, I drove with the Club that Night and as the Gentleman my mother raise me as I stop and offer her help and a place to stay but she didn’t want to be staying with me so one of the Girls offer her a place to stay and she agree to ride with me back to the Clubhouse and it took me three month's for her to agree to go out with me. I still remember the first date and the first night we had together. Every day that I have spent with her as been the best days of my life I wouldn’t want to share my life with anyone else but with her.

I look at the door I told her to be here at 6 pm but it's closer to 7 now, she have never been late before… Sure every women is late when you are going out but when she come by the Clubhouse after work She is never late. Never not once, I start to wonder what happen. She works at the Tattoo shop at the other side of town, I take my beer and I get up and I walk over to my office and I look at the Clock before I call her Shop. The phone is ringing, and it’s tells me that She did close up the Shop on time. I hang up the phone and I sigh as I let go of the phone, what the fuck's going on. I take another sip of my beer as I look around and that’s when I see one of the Tattoo artist from my Darling's shop walk in and she look worried and she don't give me a smile as her eyes are landing on me, I see her walk thru the Clubhouse, she walk with hurry steps and I frown at this as I look at her as she come up to me.

"I was told to leave this to you. I'm sorry My son was sick, or I would have left it earlier" she tells me and I take the paper she hold out to me.

"How is he?" I ask, Sandy is one of the Few how are not part of the Club but she is still part of the Club. Sandy is a tattoo Artist and I see her as my sister even if We are not sibling and her son I see as my Nephew.

"He's better but I need to get home. She told me to take next week off from work" Sandy tells me and walk out.

I don’t take offend as she walks out because she never like to leave her Son alone for long and if he is sick, she wouldn’t stay longer then she needed. I know that Sandy would have taken him with her to work at the Tattoo shop, I smile as I see her close the door and the party should have been going by now but they all know that we are waiting for one special person, so they haven’t started the party yet. I look down to my hand. I look at the paper I now have in my hand I see it’s my lady’s handwriting, I need to read this alone. I walk back to my office.

My beloved Reaper...

I hate goodbye's my darling and I'm sorry for this… Darling it's time for me to leave now... I can't stay any longer with you I'm sorry... But my heart will always be with you... I'm sorry that I leave you like this, but my heart is breaking as it’s... I took the ring you gave me, Reaper... When we meet I was running away from my family... My Father to tell you the truth, so much that we didn’t say I’m sorry for all of it... My Grandfather found me and told me that he's dead... and I need to return home... since I'm My Father’s only Heir... Reaper my beloved… Please don't look for me it will only bring trouble to you and your club... These Three years I have had with you have been heaven Reaper my Beloved... But I need to get home to get my Father's thing's ready... I don't know if I will see you again... but remember I only love you...

Yours Jennie

I look at the letter as the meaning of the letter start to sink into my mind, I let out a scream as I throw the beer bottle into the wall. I see how everyone is in the Club turn to me and I re-read the letter and I start growling She left me… As I read the letter again, I see how my brother’s coming into my office and they look at me as put the letter on the desk and I look at it… She left me with a fucking Dear John letter, she didn't have the Balls to tell it to my face. But I knew she was afraid of her father how was a dangerous man according to her, but I can't believe she didn't come and tell me straight to my face and I see how my friends look at me and I breath heavily as I fight to keep the tears back, the Growling and screaming was enough to scare them.

"What's Wrong Jack? "My oldest friend and my VP ask me as he put his hand on my shoulder, I know he must have called me Reaper first and I didn’t react to it so that’s why he said my given name.

"She left" I growl and start throwing things from my desk and she took the only thing I had from my mother with her… the Rose ring...

My mother died when I was barely a teenager and That Ring was the Ring my Father and Grandfather’s and even my Great-grandfather gave that Ring to the women they loved, and they married that women. I sit down behind my raven desk and I look at the letter. She told me not to look for her, is she fucking Kidding me.

"Find her" I growl out to my Crew they nod to me and I get up and I take the letter with me and I walk out of the club and over to my bike I’m going for a ride to clear my head.

It's been only five hours since I saw her last, I was at her Shop for her to make a tattoo on me and had to leave because I need to do somethings for the Club. I drive the way home to the house where we have been living for the last two years. I park my bike somewhere I am hoping that all this is a nightmare or that I will make I before she truly leaves me forever. I don’t walk up the driveway I run up and as I open door to the house, I take three steps inside and my world is destroyed… Everything that belong to her is gone… I walk thru the house and I look thru every room and she is gone like she never been here… I walk into our Bedroom where I was holding her last night close to my chest and this morning as I made love to her as the Queen she is. I look at the wardrobe that’s is open and it’s empty I sink to my knee’s as my world is destroyed… I look at the paper that’s shredded at the bed I bend forward and turn it over and I see the photo We took of us together in the sunset three Months ago. This is the only I have of her now, a Torn photo of us. I feel the tears running down my cheek’s, my darling is gone. I pick up ever last piece of the Photo and I start tape it back together again… I need it...

"If it's the last thing I do I will find you" I growl out as I look at the only photo, I know We took together Jennie never like taking photo so this is one of the few of her and me together... She deleted me out of her life my darling Jennie... I will find you....

The morning after I get back to the Club telling them all what Have happen and made sure that they all are to look after my Girl... I made sure they all know That Jennie is my old Lady I didn’t say it before but now I do... I see the color drain from one of the Prospect's face and I know I miss something... I made her my old lady the day I put my mother's Ring on her finger... but She wasn't given the Vest to wear because I didn't think she was ready for that step... I walk out of the Club and on to my bike...

Chapter Two

Jennie

I did the only thing I could... I left everything behind... I only took the gold ring he put on my finger had he ask me to marry him that day I would have told him about what my father did for a living but when he didn't, that's when I knew we wasn't going to last... Three years was the time I got with Reaper before my Father pass away and I could go back home, back to Italy. I never told my Darling that My father was part of the Russian Mafia and the Italian Mafia. I look at the bodyguard how pick me up. I don't know if I'm make the right thing by leaving him, I love him so much. But I found him one-night Balls deep in one of the Girls that hang-around the club, that's was the night I got the call from my Grandfather. I was going to tell him that I think I'm Pregnant that night too, but that night I saw what I was to him. I was just a girl to please him when he wanted, he didn't even claim me in-front of he's brothers when one of them was hitting on me and was trying to feel me up in-front of him. I knew I was leaving that some point that day.

I look at the plane that was going to take my Home, but that’s not true, I’m leaving my home. Home is where the heart is… I get on to the plane and we are leaving for my Home... What I'm going to do… What I’m going to do if I’m pregnant like I think I’m… I know that this will get trouble if Jack find out I left with he's child he made it clear that any children of he's will be raise in the Club. But I’m in trouble with my family since my Child will be a bastard. born out of Wedlock it a sin in my family and no one will Marry someone how is pregnant with another man’s Child. I will not let this happen to my baby.

I take my seat in the plane and I fall asleep on the plane for the first time since I was 18 years old I’m surrounded by bodyguards again… I was 18 years old when I left this Guards are the trusted guard that was loyal to me and my mother, but they were My Father’s Guard… I turned 36 three weeks ago and I wish Jack was with me. He would have loved my Home in Italy, but I couldn’t tell him. I couldn’t tell Him how I truly was.

"Jasmine, please talk to us" one of the Guard ask me and I look at him and I look up to see that my old friend's and Bodyguard are with us.

"I think I'm Pregnant" I tell them, and they look at me, they Know the Sin I carry.

"Where is the Father? I will" He start Growling and I look out the window not meeting his eyes.

"Don't, I left him. he doesn’t know anything. I use Jennie not Jasmine... he won't find me... I still love him so don’t" I tell him, and they look at me...

"You need a man to take the father's role... Your Grandfather will help you with that..." another of them tell me...

It's normal for my family to do this... We fall in love with someone we can't marry, and we have their baby… That's why My Stepfather tried to kill me because I wasn’t his Child... My blood father was of Russian-and Spanish blood… A Man high up in Russian Mafia... And my mother Italian and Scottish also with Ties to the Mafia but in Italy... This made my temper high and deadly, I found out when I was 18 that the man, I called Father was not my Father I found my mother told me only what blood he came from not his name or anything else. Jack tried to keep me away from the trouble he had with the Club, but I knew Just a call and I could take care of it, but I never did. I never got involved with the Club. Now I need to find a man how will Raise my child with me, and accept that he will never sleep with me... I love Jack and my child will know from an early age who its father is. I look at the Boy's how have been Guarding me all my life...

"Don't worry Darling. You are home" they tell me, but My home I left behind…

For weeks I look at the Photo of Reaper and My grandfather find me a Russian man with some Italian blood... the Rules of the Mafia Since I’m Italian my husband must have Italian blood… The first time I meet him I told him everything about what I had done, He listen and told me that he knew that my Child will be the only child because he will not sleep next to me… he will not touch me in privet... I see that I hurt him when I tell him this, but he accepts it… I know that this will be hard for him to understand but I still Love Reaper...

"You still love him?" he asks, and I look at him.

"Yes... I can't stop loving him... Three years of my life and I still love him..." I tell him and he smile.

"Don't worry Jasmine" He say, and I look at him it's strange to hear my real name again... I have been Jennie since I left home at 18 years old so my step-father didn't find me.

"Thanks Antonio" I say and I’m give him a small smile, he looks at me with a soft look like he is thinking something over.

"Leo darling... Call me Leo, when we are alone..." he tells me and kiss my hand.

Antonio's voice reminds me of Jack... I take one look at Antonio and I see that they could be brother's... only that Antonio's arms are not cover with tattoo like Jack arms are and oh how I miss waking up in Jack’s strong arms or tracing his tattoo on his chest with my tongue... They both have dark hair and Steel Gray eyes... Jack is more tanned then Antonio, but they are the same high and the same broad shoulders, the same ruff hand's... but Antonio's English is like Jack's Italian... Just don't go there... I keep my Russian up to speed, so we speak Russian or Italian with one and other. I look at my Grandfather how are working out the things about the married we are going to have. My grandfather doesn’t even know that I’m pregnant yet. I don’t like telling my family that I have Sin and that I’m Carrying a bastard’s Child. Antonio promise never to tell anyone about that I was pregnant before the wedding… But one thing I have been pushing since he agrees to marry me was Bodyguard’s for my baby. Bodyguard before my baby is born.

"So bodyguard for our son" Leo say and I look up at him.

"I believe it's a Girl I’m having" I tell him and he look at me the same look he have been giving me the last five time’s we have spoken about my child, he want it to be a boy since he know it will be the only Child of ours.

"Bodyguard for the little one." he ask he don't want to fight me what I believe my baby will be...

"One from Russia one from Spain one from Italy one from Scotland and one from USA" I tell him, and he look at me as he writes, he doesn’t like it but he can’t say shit about it.

"No American before she goes there" he tells me, and I look at him...

"That's fine... but my child will learn to speak those language" I tell him, and he look at me.

"French and Japanese too. I have people in those country working for me" Antonio tells me with a glint in his eyes like he knows something I don’t, I nod to it. It’s better for my daughter to know more language then just a few of them.

"Then She will have one Japanese and French bodyguard too. They are to know the country well and they must be loyal to us. And they are not to know that you are not the father." I tell him and he nod to me.

"I agree if we both die, and she's raised by them. she will get angry at anyone how know about you not be her father. so we keep them in dark, and the reason you won’t sleep in my room is because You found me with a mistress, and since my family and your family don't do divorce we have agree to keep the peace in the family" Antonio tells me and I nod.

"I will not stop you from taking lover's Leo but please don't make it so my child will see it" I beg him to understand that I don’t want my Child to see it.

"don't worry I have a house that I am planning on using for that. So, you and I will have a special word for when I'm planning on using it. Your child will never see that house." he tells me with a stern voice telling me that he will only see this Child as mine not ours, but he will treat it as his and I nod to him because I can’t do nothing anything else or I’m losing my family’s respect...

"Thanks Leo... We have some time to get use to this... but I want to marry you before I start showing..." I tell him and with that I’m giving him even more ammo against me and my family he knows that I’m carry a bastard’s Child and he nod slowly and then he smirks even more at me...

"But Remember that it's going to be a big wedding" he tells me, and I feel the horror in my heart…

For the coming week's we are planning a wedding and I looking for bodyguard for my baby girl I will not say anything to them that Leo is not her father I see how the Japanese that Leo send and he's an younger one then before. We have found two Russian men one old and one younger they are family and they are the second and third bodyguard for my girl... I just hope that my Girl will be safe with them... I see how Ivan and Vlad are both sitting behind me ready to hurt anyone how are threatens me or my Child, My Spanish bodyguard is outside or my Child's bodyguard is outside Armando was my first and only Spanish choose of bodyguard... Keith from Scotland was a fight with Leo... Keith is gay that's was a problem for Leo but I told him that Keith would help the Child accept that everyone is different and I won it in the end.. Giuliano was Leo's pick and so was Chevy...

"So, Mr." I start and I shift in the chair this is the eight Japanese bodyguard I have interviewed.

"It's Akira" He tells me with a soft and calm voice he speaks just above a whisper and I look at him, his voice is perfect for a child how is afraid. I see how he haven’t look upset that I have bodyguard’s already here.

"Mr. Akira" I start over but he holds up his hand for me to stop.

"Just Akira… Are you okay?" he asks as I shift in my Seat again my darling is active today just like she have been with each of the Guard how I have hired before…

"Zhena You need to Drink more Water" Vlad say in he's heavy Russian accent he never Use Madam or Mrs. He use the Russian word Zhena. I see that Ivan hold out the water bottle to me, he has been sitting and holding the bottle not trusting anyone with what I drink.

"Thanks Ivan. Vlad you are driving me crazy... I know I need more water and" I start when Giuliano come in with my favorite ice cream. My girl want's ice cream with chili pepper the strong and burning Chili pepper.

"Thanks Giuliano" I tell him as I start to eat it, I see how Akira take in what happening around me and I see him sit up a little straighter and he look at my plate and he seem to take in that what I’m eating is not normal.

"You are pregnant?" he asks still just above a whisper and I look up and nod slowly to him and he seem to accept it, just like the men behind me.

"Yes... Ivan, Vlad… Giuliano...Keith... Armando and Chevy are the bodyguard to my child" I tell him, as I tell him that They are My child’s guard he takes another look at them each like he is checking for something...

"And why would you need so many?" he asks as he’s eyes land back on me where I’m have been finishing the plate of Ice Cream.

"Vlad and Ivan are from Russia... Giuliano are from Italy... Keith is from Scotland... Armando is from Spain, and Chevy is from France... My daughter will learn this language while she grows up she will also learn English" I tell him, he nod for each of them like he folding the information for later and he keep his eyes on me and he don’t smile but he seem to want to know something and I raise my eyebrow letting him know that I want to know…

"So, your Child will learn Japanese too?" he ask still this soft voice and low but it have gotten a little more interested in the job I’m asking him to do and I nod.

"I have no problem to be a bodyguard to a Child, but I don't like your husband" he tells me with a stern tone in the low whispering voice and I look at him.

"it's not him your guarding it's me as long as I carry my child and when she's born it's her you are protecting" I tell him, I see him lean back and he look at the Guard’s how are all carrying their gun’s for the world to see.

"Will she learn how to run the famiglia?" he asks, somehow his voice have change it’s not the distant man that walk in here, Akira speak as I already hired him… Of course, I will hire him my darling have been pushing around inside of me since Akira walk in… I nod, I know he have another word for it where he come from. (Family)

"Yes, she will" I tell him and I see Leo come in and I see how the man stiff up, he don’t like my husband but can he overcome this to protect my Child…

"Mr. Valentino" he says with a low and respectful voice and just like that my Child go still… she never moves around Antonio if that wasn’t a giveaway that Antonio is not good for me I don’t know what is… I look at my husband and Akira how looking at each other with a hard smile on their face… they are not liking one and other.

"Akira how's your family?" Antonio ask and I see how Akira get up from the Chair.

"My family is fine as you know... I'm sorry Mrs. Valentino I have some things I need to take care off" he tells me he's voice became cold and hard when he speaks to my Husband.

"Akira... how far would you go to protect my child" I asks as he turn around to leave, he didn’t show any coldness or anger before my husband walk in and I see him stop and turn around looking at my face then his eyes soften up as his eyes land on my swollen belly and then they grow cold as I feel Leo put he's arms around me protecting my belly from Akira’s eyes.

"Mrs. Valentino I would kill, and I would die for the one I protect. I was raise that way Mrs. Valentino and Your Child Will be safe even from that man behind you if I was to be involved as a bodyguard" he growl still in that low whispering ton but this time, I feel the fear that he telling me what my daughter have been telling me because she don’t move around my husband, Antonio is no good for me, I look in to Akira’s eyes and I know that he mean his word’s and he will die protecting my child...

"Akira will you Come back tomorrow" I tell him I have made my mind about having him as the last guard to my daughter and I see him not Nod but bow he behind his body from the waist up down in a deep bow for me and with that he turn on his heels and walk out of the room and I give Chevy a nod telling him to follow Akira out of the house...

I gently turn around in the Leo’s arms and he smile at me as I give my guards a look telling them to leave the room all but Vlad is leaving the room. Vlad don’t trust My Husband, I don’t expect Vlad to trust anyone as the oldest one of my Child’s bodyguards he is the head bodyguard to my child and I see how Leo is looking at Vlad with hate in his eyes and trying to get Him to leave us alone but Vlad don’t move…

“Leave” Leo growl and I sigh inside why can’t he just accept that Vlad take his job to heart… I knew this that’s why I hired him… Vlad had work for my stepfather, so I knew of Vlad.

"Don't. Vlad won't leave you know that...” I tell him I have been telling him this every time and since I told Vlad the story that Leo was cheating on me Vlad won’t let him be alone with me…

“So, what's the Story with Akira?" I ask and Leo let go of me and he look at me with anger like I shouldn’t ask about that, but he still try to act like a loving husband…

“You know better than to ask for things like this…” Leo growl at me as I know he won’t tell me, and I give a slow nod but I see how Vlad is looking at Leo and I see that Leo is changing his mind…

“You don’t ask after this… His family is dead… Okay… The reason I know this is because my Grandfather told me… Akira hate me for some reason but he’s loyal to me since my father took him in” Leo tells me, I know there is more to the story then what Leo is telling me, and I’m going to ask Akira to see if he can tell me more but I know I want Akira as a guard.

"I want him as the Last guard..." I tell Leo and he give me a smile telling me that Leo don’t have a problem with having Akira as a guard for my Child.

"Thank God for that… I was running out of Japanese people I trust" Leo tells me and I don’t know what he is planning but I know that I need to be careful around my husband…

We have been married for eight weeks and we have got everything for my little Child, Leo still hold his hope up that my little one is a Son, but I know it’s a Girl... We haven’t spoken of the Name of the Child yet, But I know Leo won’t be part in picking out the name of my Child… I sit down in my easy chair and write in my Journal as I do every day, I have the only photo of Jack inside of it and I make sure that Leo never see this photo… I have all my photo of Jack in a shoes box hidden away in the wardrobe. I write in the journal every day about Jack and me, how I felt after I left him. About my Child and everything else, I sit and Write when I hear the door open and I know it’s Leo. I close the book and I hide it under the blanket where I’m sitting, and Leo walk into the room. I see him sit down and I take in his cloth he is dress up and frown at this… Why wouldn’t he tell me we are going out…

"Are we going out?" I ask in a soft voice and he shake he's head...

"I know it's been two months’ since we meet, and I haven't touch anyone I need "he start saying and I know what he is telling me.

"So You will be out with your Boy's tonight?" I ask him to stop him from speaking more about it as I see Vlad how walk in to the room and Vlad give a low growl like he wants Leo to know he is there.

I see how Leo frown at first but then he hears Vlad Growl and as Vlad walk over to me and give me a plate of food, he has been making sure that I eat and that I’m Calm… I see how Leo understand that I’m giving him a way of telling me that he’s going out and cheat on me without telling the Guard…

"Thanks Vlad... Antonio are you going with the boy's?" I ask Leo again and I see how Leo nod slowly.

"Yes, I will be out with the boy's so don't wait up" He tells me and get up as I start to eat, and I know Vlad will take care of me.

"Just don't end up in Jail please... I can't handle that" I tell Leo hopping that he gets what I’m talking about...

I see how Vlad is looking at Leo how are walking out with his head high and I see how Akira is looking at Leo with hate, I still haven’t got the story From Akira why he hate my husband, I feel my child move as Leo is out of the house, and I start eating happy that Vlad is giving me the kind of food I love and my Child love too..

"You know he's not going out with the Boy's" Akira tells me and I look up, at Him and I haven’t told Akira about Leo cheating on me…

"I know, that’s why we not sleeping in the same room. Until he stops playing with the Whore's, I'm not sleeping with him… I told him as long as he doesn’t let My child see this I don't care" I tell them, and they nod. Now every guard know the story and I have planted a seed that my Child is not Leo… but I haven’t told them out right…

"She will never see anything" I hear how all of them say and they are growling, and they are promise me something that means the world to me and I nod slowly as I eat.

They are standing in-front of me and I take out my Journal that they know I write in I keep it hidden from Leo but not my daughter’s bodyguard’s, I slowly pull out the Photo of Jack as I look into his eyes I sigh and I feel my eyes tears up and I pray that he won’t drink himself to death because of my betrayal, Jack will see it as a betrayal that I left him. I see how Ivan and Vlad are moving closer and I can tell they are worried, and I feel how someone is taking the Photo out of my hand, It’s Ivan…

"Someone we need to know about?" he asks in a low voice and I shake my head, I’m not telling them, but Ivan have now seen my daughter’s father, Please Ivan remember his face… I can’t help but to think…

"Not at the moment" I tell Ivan and I see Ivan look closely at the photo of Jack like he is trying to find out how that is.

"Do you have the new ultrasound?" Ivan ask and I look at him as I pull it out...

Vlad have been with me to every time I have gone to the Doctor, but he doesn’t see the scan of the baby Not before anyone else of the Guard… I look at them as I pull out the ultrasound and I have a copy for every one of her bodyguard, and they have each their own little book for my girl, and they look at the ultrasound other's ultrasound that I have given them... I see how they are showing more interest in the girl then Leo... Leo haven’t seen any of the photo, but Leo and I have our deal...

"It's a Girl" Akira say and look at me, I have told them each time that I’m giving them a photo that I’m having a girl and today she is big enough for them to see it and the doctor have written on the photo that I’m having a Girl.

"Jade Jasmine Neith Valentino" I tell them as I rub my belly...

As I rub my belly, I remember the Joke that Jack’s said… his first born was going to be named Charlie no matter what… I look down as I rub my belly… she would have been Named Charlie Daniels if I was back there… I close my eyes as I make up my mind… she will be named Charlie too…

"Or Charlie Daniels" I tell them, and they smile as they write down the name of my Daughter in their book and I smile as I rub my belly and my child is kicking again…

"Why Charlie?" Keith ask and I look at them...

"Because it was a promise to someone" I tell them, and I don't like lying too them but when I and my husband die, my daughter will know the truth and she will need her bodyguard's that’s why I lie to them.

"But we call her Jade or Charlie… so she is used to those Two name" Armando tells me, and I smile, as I hope my darling one day get to meet her father, her true father…

Vlad how is the oldest one of them he will be closer to 50 when my daughter is around my age... the other will be 20 to 25 years older than my girl... but They will be loyal to her... They will be loyal, and they will protect her against anything…

I have started Writing my Will, it’s something I need to do… I hope that Mr. Lopez will make sure that my Will be executed as it should… Mr. Lopez have always been my family’s lawyer and I don’t trust anyone else to deal with my Will... I Write a letter to my daughter too to be given to her when My Will is read… I write a letter to My daughter to be given to her every year on her birthday… I write letter to Ivan and Vlad how I know will be closest to my daughter… I know it my heart that something is wrong with me and That I won’t live to my daughter is 18 years old… I know it don’t ask me how I know but I do know… I look at Giuliano how come in with something, he is holding a lot of folders…

"The American bodyguard" he tells me as I start to reading thru the fil and I see how they have pick only Bikers, the Guard’s that I have now for my daughter is the one how will pick the American bodyguard, I give a sad smile as I see that they acutely have pick my Jack’s enemy as my daughter’s Guard… This is as wrong as it can be, but we are not even close to pick a American guard yet… so I try not to worry about it...

"Yes, I will look thru them... She will not have that one until she is old enough to travel alone, and when she goes to America" I tell them and they nod, knowing them I know that my daughter will not travel alone as long as they are her guard’s…

"Don't worry we will not let her have bad bodyguard, she's a Daughter to us" Vlad tell me and I nod to them… They all are agreeing to this… I smile as I look them, they will love this more than Leo… I have been working on it without them knowing…

"So, do you want to see the nursery?" I ask and I get up and I look at them as they smile at me…

"sì" Giuliano answer me with a smile, they all have been talking with soft voices and my daughter is kicking when they talk like she accepts them in her life.(Yes)

"sí" Armando answer me softly and he hold out his hand for me to take it. (yes)

"da" Ivan and Vlad said together as they are moving up close to me, Vlad and Ivan both are always close to me and they are always careful with me. (Yes)

"Hai" Akira said as he opens the door to the hallway and he check the hallway for enemy. (yes)

"oui!"Chevy say from the window and start walking to me. (Yes)

"tha" Keith is the last to answer but he always thinks over if he answers in English or Gaelic… he speaks both. I have taken lesson to learn all of their language I don’t speak it, but I understand them. (Yes)

They all smile at me as I start walking down to the Nursery Vlad and Ivan behind my back Armando is walking with me on his arm. Akira and Keith are walking in-front and Giuliano and Chevy are at the side make sure that No one is coming close to me… I see how they are looking at me as I point to a door and they are moving up to it and I see how they are waiting for me to open the door… I slowly open the door and walk in... one of the Wall is painted Just like the sunset was the first time I meet Jack... you can see Arizona, Utah and Nevada states if you know it... The desert and the sun and I made the Jack Ride he's Harley against her bed Just Like he was Riding with his brothers that night but the different are that his alone this time… I hope that they will not pick up on that...

"it's one of best Nursery I have seen" Akira tells me and I see the other smile, I see them take in the color and the way I have made the Nursery.

"You are going to allow her to Ride a Harley like that" Chevy ask me and I look at him and give him as smile. My daughter will drive a Harley yes but not like Jack’s did…

"Yes… I will... But not like that... but knowing my daughter will have a mind of her own she will" I tell them as I stroke my belly and they look at the biker how is her real father...

Thank God that Leo and Jack are so much alike one and other... I know they won’t be able to tell that the person is someone else until they meet Jack… and I pray it they will be alone with my daughter when that happen for Leo will kill Jack’s just to hurt me… I see how they are looking at them toy's and everything in the Nursery...

"May we buy her something?" Akira ask as he hold a teddy bear in his hands, and I smile at them.

"She going to be like your daughter so please treat her right" I tell them, and they nod as they see what I got for my daughter and they are all looking at me with a smile as I see Akira standing in the door looking at me.

"Are we going to train her?" Akira ask and I nod to him, tell him that I will allow them to get her ready for the world that’s not kind to you.

"good I will teach her how to use Sword and mix martial arts" Akira say, and I hear how they all tell one and other what they will teach my daughter...

"Just wait until she's old enough" I say to them as I Walk out of the room and I see them all look at the door's... that’s in the hallway they are all looking at the hallway with the doors around where my daughter is going to sleep when she is born.

"Yes, you all have a room here... You are her bodyguard not mine" I tell them, and I see how they are looking at each room and they are making their call for each room… Ivan is closes to my daughter and so is Vlad on each side of her… I smile at this they have made sure that My daughter is safe…

For the next Seven month's My husband leave for a few days every week to have he's Boy's night out... The bodyguard of my Daughter don't like it, but they don't say a word they look at me to see if I want them to take care of my husband… I learned that Vlad and Ivan how are father and son, know more than seven thousand way to kill you... Giuliano know how to kill and make you talk... Armando, Chevy and Akira will give you nightmare with what they can do against you... I smile at their way of asking me quietly if I want my husband gone… they don’t ask it outright to me but a little hint here and there… It makes my smile as I think about it… they don’t want me, or my daughter hurt in any way…

I have become use to have my little Girls Guard’s around me one is always close by and ready to help me the others are checking thing making sure that no one is getting close to me how are not supposed to, I look at how Chevy is training a Dog, They got new guard dog’s for my house as we are looking at Chevy training the dog’s I hear someone walk In and I feel how my guard’s stiffen up… Leo the only one in the whole world that will get this reaction out of my baby girl’s guard. My Darling’s New protectors have become more and more angry with him, I know that one of them followed him on his Night out with his Boys and after that they never allowed him to be alone with me, they never told me what happen that night but I know Leo is not happy with the Guards… I look at Leo and something is off, Not like normal when he see the Guards around me, Leo look unhappy I’m try to figure out what’s wrong, I look to my girls guard’s and they are not giving anything way but they never let him be alone with me and he don't look happy truly unhappy and I just hope it’s not one of his Whores… but it take me a second to know it’s not his eyes are on my belly, and it’s with regret in his eyes…

"I need to go" he tells me, and don’t offer me anything else… I look at him I’m not going to accept this not when I’m this close to give birth.

"why" I ask and I see how Akira come in with a folder, I see how Leo hold out his hand and is given the folder… Akira hate my husband most of the Guards so why would he give my husband something… what I’m I missing...

"My Grandfather have pass away... I have to go and take care of things" He tells me, Leo have lied to me about many things so I don’t trust him, I let my eyes shift to Akira how stand next to him and he give me a nod, and telling me that Leo speak the truth My daughter's bodyguard will never lie as long as I carry my daughter in my belly… They have given a vow to protect my Child with their life.

"How long will you be gone?" I ask and Leo look at me with shock in his eyes. He thought I would fight him on this, like have the last three times he when on Family business. He took one of his Whores with him to Family business showing everyone on my side of the family that he’s cheating on me, hurting me where it hurt most. I was supposed to go with him when it was Family business, but being pregnant I couldn’t go, and he openly show the family that he doesn’t respect me,

"Three Week's I would take you, but you can’t fly without risking our Little one" he says with a soft voice that I haven’t heard him use to me at all during our Married… I see him look at my swollen belly and I know he is using this as a excuse for me not being around when I was supposed to… But I’m also about to give birth to my Child and flying at this point is not good for me or my little one… I swallow my tears and give him a smile like I always do.

"I know... Jade will be the Princess of the Mafia." I tell him as I put my hand on my belly, praying that he will take care of us both better when she is born… I see how he step closer to me and he put his hand on my stomach he have accepted that I’m carrying a girl now since I’m calling her Jade every time I can, I see how he sit down on his knee and kiss my belly the only way for him to feel Jade move for him, she have started to move for him as long as he kiss my belly first, He talk to My darling, Leo have been talking to her as soon as she started to move for him.

"Ma petite chérie be good to your mother... père will be going way for a little time. just wait until I come back before you come out" Antonio say, I smile at he's words. Antonio is showing her the love he doesn’t feel for me. I sigh as he gets up from the floor and look at me and he kiss my Cheek I’m not allowing him to kiss my lips. My body and my soul belong to Jack. (My little darling, Papa)

The men how are my daughter’s bodyguard’s have all been talking to her in their own language to My darling. They are making sure that she is use to their voices when she is born… Petite Chérie have become her name that Leo call her when he talk to her and it’s means Little Sweetheart but it’s sound more real when her guard say it because they mean it. Vlad and Ivan call her Char when they speak to her... it sound so funny sometimes when they are trying to speak another language that they haven’t learned since birth, but they are trying and I can’t keep the smile of my face knowing that my girl is protected.

"Don't worry... We have the Guard and I know they will kill anyone how tried to hurt her" I tell Leo, he may not like that I have so many guards but he can’t argue that they don’t take their job seriously, I see him nod slowly like he’s looking at where the guards are and then he nod to me and he place the most gentle kiss on my Cheek again… have keep his promise never try something with me or push me…

"I'll try to stop seeing other women... It is getting harder to leave you and her" he whispers in my ear, he think that he can fool me… for months he have been giving me this promise but I know his type of men and they will never stop...

"Safe trip" I tell him with a fake smile and he smile back at me and I see him take the briefcase from one hand and the suitcase in the other and I see how his bodyguards that he normally don’t let me see, nod to him and they walk outside to the waiting car, I walk with him to the door trying to be the perfect wife…

“Please call you Grandfather… I don’t want you alone with the Guards” he tells me as he is about to step in to the car and I nod…

I sigh as I see the car leave… for the first time since we married, I feel safe… I know That Ivan or Vlad would have called my Grandfather… They are more protected of me than my Husband and I smile as I see Keith come up to me and he smile at me as he hold out his hand for me to take and he walk me back inside to my favorite room in the house it’s the library… it have big window’s to the backyard where the Mausoleum is place and the Rose garden that my great-grandmother made… I see how my Grandfather walk in to the library and he smile as he kiss my forehead, like he always do, he don’t like my husband but love wasn’t in my Cards… he know it like my mother knew… it was a power play I was a women with no power, but my family name… I would never be at the head of the table, so I need Leo… and Grandfather picked him for me… I see how my Grandfather look at my guards how are always making sure that they have eyes on me… My grandfather thinks it’s funny that my bodyguards don’t leave me alone for longer than a few second before next guard take the last guards place… It take some explaining to my grandfather that this men are not My guard, they are Baby Girls Bodyguard… that made his stop laughing…

"You have seven bodyguard for your Daughter?" he asks as we are taking a seat at the dinner table with the guards how are making sure that I eat right and that I don’t need anything… This is the first night and the Guard take their place at a table behind me but close enough to be of help if I need it.

"Yeah... They are all from country we have business in, and They will help her to learn the language of their Country" I tell my grandfather how smile at this, he know that My darling will need to be able to speak with those how work for us…

"That’s good thinking Darling... Are they teaching her to fight too?" he asks as we eat and I look at Vlad how just put down the glass of water next to me he have check my food and water before giving it to me, I turn my head to look at them...

"sì" Giuliano answer with he's slow voice and still with the heavy Italian accent when he speaks. (Yes)

"sí" Armando answer my Grandfather and he's Spanish is not that heavy like some of my cousins, but it’s there and he is speaking softly like everyone is when it comes to Jade. (yes)

"da" Ivan and Vlad said together the voice of them are so deep and they sound so angry as they speak, but they keep their eyes on my belly. (yes)

"Hai" Akira said as he set down a plate of almond next to me one of my normal cravings. (yes)

"My family believe not to eat them but petite chérie love them" Akira say and I smile at him as I start to eat of them. (little sweetheart)

"oui!"Chevy said. (yes)

Chevy is the only one how was friendly to my husband but as he learned of my husband’s infidelity he became more quiet and his voice got lower when he spoke but it was full of love when someone ask about Jade… They all knew of my Husband’s infidelity even if they saw that I never touch him in any way they would treat him as a threat to my Daughter, I know that they are starting to questioning what really going on but they don’t have ask me or Leo… So they only have guesses what’s going on…

"tha" Keith answer Keith is always the last one to answer, like always and I smile at my Grandfather as I eat the Almonds as my Grandfather is nodding like he is thinking, and he is trying to plan something for my daughter... I move around in the chair ever since Leo left Jade have been active and It’s been hurting. (yes)

"Ooh!" I say and put a hand on my belly trying to get Jade to stop moving, I press my hand on the belly and I feel Jade kick at my hand and I see how everyone is looking at me and Armando is looking at me with worried eyes...

"What's wrong?" Vlad ask his Russian accent is heavy and his voice is worried and soft, and I try to sit another way so my darling will calm down.

"I don't... Ooh!!" I say again and that's when I feel the amniotic fluid flows down my leg. Jade wasn’t going to wait for Leo to be around when she was coming. I’m happy that she is only three weeks premature or that’s what my family and everyone will think…

"Shit... She is coming" I yell, and just like that the Guards are on their feet and they are out of the room and I feel Vlad’s hand on my shoulder turning my chair around, I see how they are moving they must have been planning and practiced this because they are not asking they are doing...

"What do you want me to do?" my Grandfather asks with panic in his voice and I can’t tell him because of the pain my darling is giving me. I look up to see Keith grab his arm…

"In the Car. We have everything under control" Keith say with a firm and determined voice and Chevy come to me as Vlad and Ivan is helping me with a jacket and Chevy lift me up in his arms… shit I didn’t think he would be able to carry me but he do that my grandfather is in the car and Chevy is putting me in the car and Armando is driving the car...

It took fourteen hours for Jade to come to the world I feel so tired but my darlings’ bodyguards was there thru it all, Vlad and Ivan was the two how never left me alone… My grandfather was waiting in the waiting-room and it’s over fourteen hours, the Guards are walking out to Grandfather to tell him how things are going for me and Jade... Fourteen hours and then she is here, she is so small... I look down at my little darling I hold her so gently against my chest and I feel the tears run down my cheek... My Charlie... My Jade... her eyes are dead giveaway she's mine and Jack... my Green Color but Jack's shape... I look at her as a flash go off and I see Vlad holding a camera and smiling… I didn’t even see that he had a camera with him but I’m happy that he did have it with him.

"Sorry" he says and take it down he don’t look like his sorry but I love that he took a photo of my darling.

"don't be... She's under your protection now" I tell him and smile at Ivan how are standing next to me Vlad have already hold my daughter, so I give her to him, and Vlad is taking photo of each of them as they hold her for their first time...

"With our life" they say as they hold her and I see how each of them cut their fingers as they hold her and they let one single blood drop on to her forehead and I see how she smile up at them as they are doing a cross with the blood on her small forehead and she is smiling and trying to grab their hands.

"now she need her mother" Vlad how is the last one to hold her even if he was the first one to hold her as she was born but he give her over to me and he make sure that I got a good grip on my daughter before he even let go of my daughter...

"Sleep we watch over you" Keith tells me and I nod to them as I start to close my eyes when I remember that I need to tell Leo that my daughter is here…

"will you call my husband and tell him she is here" I ask them as I close my eyes, I don't need see their face to know that they will make the call, but they are not going to be nice to him...