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As he waited for his breakfast, never served to time, Mr. Lashmar drummed upon the window-pane, and seemed to watch a blackbird lunching with much gusto about the moist lawn of Alverholme Vicarage. But his gaze was absent and worried. The countenance of the reverend gentleman rarely wore any other expression, for he took to heart all human miseries and follies, and lived in a ceaseless mild indignation against the tenor of the age.
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As he waited for his breakfast, never served to time, Mr. Lashmar drummed upon the window-pane, and seemed to watch a blackbird lunching with much gusto about the moist lawn of Alverholme Vicarage. But his gaze was absent and worried. The countenance of the reverend gentleman rarely wore any other expression, for he took to heart all human miseries and follies, and lived in a ceaseless mild indignation against the tenor of the age. Inwardly, Mr. Lashmar was at this moment rather pleased, having come upon an article in his weekly paper which reviewed in a very depressing strain the present aspect of English life. He felt that he might have, and ought to have, written the article himself a loss of opportunity which gave new matter for discontent.
The Rev. Philip was in his sixty-seventh year; a thin, dry, round-shouldered man, with bald occiput, straggling yellowish beard, and a face which recalled that of Darwin. The resemblance pleased him. Privately he accepted the theory of organic evolution, reconciling it with a very broad Anglicanism; in his public utterances he touched upon the Darwinian doctrine with a weary disdain. This contradiction involved no insincerity; Mr. Lashmar merely held in contempt the common understanding, and declined to expose an esoteric truth to vulgar misinterpretation. Yet he often worried about it—as he worried over everything.
Nearer causes of disquiet were not lacking to him. For several years the income of his living had steadily decreased; his glebe, upon which he chiefly depended, fell more and more under the influence of agricultural depression, and at present he found himself, if not seriously embarrassed, likely to be so in a very short time. He was not a good economist; he despised everything in the nature of parsimony; his ideal of the clerical life demanded a liberal expenditure of money no less than unsparing personal toil. He had generously exhausted the greater part of a small private fortune; from that source there remained to him only about a hundred pounds a year. His charities must needs be restricted; his parish outlay must be pinched; domestic life must proceed on a narrower basis. And all this was to Mr. Lashmar supremely distasteful.
Not less so to Mr. Lashmar’s wife, a lady ten years his junior, endowed with abundant energies in every direction save that of household order and thrift. Whilst the vicar stood waiting for breakfast, tapping drearily on the window-pane, Mrs. Lashmar entered the room, and her voice sounded the deep, resonant note which announced a familiar morning mood.
“You don’t mean to say that breakfast isn’t ready! Surely, my dear, you could ring the bell?”
“I have done so,” replied the vicar, in a tone of melancholy abstraction.
Mrs. Lashmar rang with emphasis, and for the next five minutes her contralto swelled through the vicarage, rendering inaudible the replies she kept demanding from a half rebellious, half intimidated servant. She was not personally a coarse woman, and her manners did not grossly offend against the convention of good-breeding; but her nature was self-assertive. She could not brook a semblance of disregard for her authority, yet, like women in general, had no idea of how to rule. The small, round face had once been pretty; now, with its prominent eyes, in-drawn lips, and obscured chin, it inspired no sympathetic emotion, rather an uneasiness and an inclination for retreat. In good humour or in ill, Mrs. Lashmar was aggressive. Her smile conveyed an amiable defiance; her look of grave interest alarmed and subdued.
“I have a line from Dyce,” remarked the vicar, as at length he applied himself to his lukewarm egg and very hard toast. “He thinks of running down.”
“He doesn’t say.”
“Then why did he write? I’ve no patience with those vague projects. Why did he write until he had decided on the day?”
“Really, I don’t know,” answered Mr. Lashmar, feebly. His wife, in this mood, had a dazing effect upon him.
“Let me see the letter.”
Mrs. Lashmar perused the half-dozen lines in her son’s handwriting.
“Why, he does say!” she exclaimed in her deepest and most disdainful chord. “He says ‘before long.’”
“True. But I hardly think that conveys—”
“Oh, please don’t begin a sophistical argument He says when he is coming, and that’s all I want to know here’s a letter, I see, from that silly Mrs. Barker—her husband has quite given up drink, and earns good wages, sad the eldest boy has a place—pooh!”
“All very good news, it seems to me,” remarked the vicar, slightly raising his eyebrows.
But one of Mrs. Lashmar’s little peculiarities was that, though she would exert herself to any extent for people whose helpless circumstances utterly subjected them to her authority, she lost all interest in them as soon as their troubles were surmounted, and even viewed with resentment that result of her own efforts. Worse still, from her point of view, if the effort had largely been that of the sufferers themselves—as in this case. Mrs. Barker, a washerwoman who had reformed her sottish husband, was henceforth a mere offence in the eyes of the vicar’s wife.
“As silly a letter as ever I read!” she exclaimed, throwing aside the poor little sheet of cheap note-paper with its illiterate gratitude. “Oh, here’s something from Lady Susan—pooh! Another baby. What do I care about her babies! Not one word about Dyce—not one word. Now, really!”
“I don’t remember what you expected,” remarked the vicar, mildly.
Mrs. Lashmar paid no heed to him. With a resentful countenance, she had pushed the letters aside, and was beginning her meal. Amid all the so-called duties which she imposed upon herself—for, in her own way, she bore the burden of the world no less than did the Rev. Philip—Mrs. Lashmar never lost sight of one great preoccupation, the interests of her son. He, Dyce Lashmar, only child of the house, now twenty-seven years old, lived in London, and partly supported himself as a private tutor. The obscurity of this existence, so painful a contrast to the hopes his parents had nourished, so disappointing an outcome of all the thought that had been given to Dyce’s education, and of the not inconsiderable sums spent upon it, fretted Mrs. Lashmar to the soul; at times she turned in anger against the young man himself, accusing him of ungrateful supineness, but more often eased her injured feelings by accusation of all such persons as, by any possibility, might have aided Dyce to a career. One of these was Lady Susan Harrop, a very remote relative of hers. Twice or thrice a year, for half-a-dozen years at least, Mrs. Lashmar had urged upon Lady Susan the claims of her son to social countenance and more practical forms of advancement; hitherto with no result—save, indeed, that Dyce dined once every season at the Harrops’ table. The subject was painful to Mr. Lashmar also, but it affected him in a different way, and he had long ceased to speak of it.
“That selfish, frivolous woman!” sounded presently from behind the coffee-service, not now in accents of wrath, but as the deliberate utterance of cold judgment. “Never in all her life has she thought of anyone but herself. What right has such a being to bring children into the world? What can be expected of them but meanness and hypocrisy?”
Mr. Lashmar smiled. He had just broken an imperfect tooth upon a piece of toast, and, as usual when irritated, his temper became ironic.
“Sweet are the uses of disappointment,” he observed. “How it clears one’s vision!”
“Do you suppose I ever had any better opinion of Lady Susan?” exclaimed his wife.
It was a principle of Mr. Lashmar’s never to argue with a woman. Sadly smiling, he rose from the table.
“Here’s an article you ought to read,” he said, holding out the weekly paper. “It’s fall of truth, well expressed. It may even have some bearing on this question.”
The vicar went about his long day’s work, and took with him many uneasy reflections. He bad not thought of it before breakfast, but now it struck him that much in that pungent article on the men of to-day might perchance apply to the character and conduct of his own son. “A habit of facile enthusiasm, not perhaps altogether insincere, but totally without moral value . . . convictions assumed at will, as a matter of fashion, or else of singularity . . . the lack of stable purpose, save only in matters of gross self-interest . . . an increasing tendency to verbose expression . . . an all but utter lack of what old-fashioned people still call principle. . . .” these phrases recurred to his memory, with disagreeable significance. Was that in truth a picture of his son, of the boy whom he had loved and watched over and so zealously hoped for? Possibly he wronged Dyce, for the young man’s mind and heart had long ceased to be clearly legible to him. “Worst, perhaps, of all these frequent traits is the affectation of—to use a silly word—altruism. The most radically selfish of men seem capable of persuading themselves into the belief that their prime motive is to ‘live for others.’ Of truly persuading themselves—that is the strange thing. This, it seems to us, is morally far worse than the unconscious hypocrisy which here and there exists in professors of the old religion; there is something more nauseous about self-deceiving ‘altruism’ than in the attitude of a man who, thoroughly worldly in fact, believes himself a hopeful candidate for personal salvation.” Certain recent letters of Dyce appeared in a new light when seen from this point of view. It was too disagreeable a subject; the vicar strove to dismiss it from his mind.
In the afternoon, he had to visit a dying man, an intelligent shopkeeper, who, while accepting the visit as a proof of kindness, altogether refused spiritual comfort, and would speak of nothing but the future of his children. Straightway Mr. Lashmar became the practical consoler, lavish of kindly forethought. Only when he came forth did he ask himself whether he could possibly fulfil half of what he had undertaken.
“It is easier,” he reflected, “to make promises for the world to come. Is it not also better? After all, can I not do it with a clearer conscience?”
He walked slowly, worrying about this and fifty other things, feeling a very Atlas under the globe’s oppression. Rig way took him across a field in which there was a newly bourgeoned copse; he remembered that, last spring, he had found white violets about the roots of the trees. A desire for their beauty and odour possessed him; he turned across the grass. Presently a perfume guided him to a certain mossy corner where pale sweet florets nestled amid their leaves. He bent over them, and stretched his hand to pluck, but in the same moment checked himself; why should he act the destroyer in this spot of perfect quietness and beauty?
“Dyce would not care much about them,” was another thought that came into his mind.
He rose from his stooping posture with ache of muscles and creaking of joints. Alas for the days when he ran and leapt and knew not pain! Walking slowly away, he worried himself about the brevity of life.
By a stile he passed into the highroad, at the lower end of the long village of Alverholme. He had an appointment with his curate at the church school, and, not to be unpunctual, he quickened his pace in that direction. At a little distance behind him was a young lady whom he had not noticed; she, recognizing the vicar, pursued with light, quick step, and soon overtook him.
“How do you do, Mr. Lashmar!”
“Why—Miss Bride!” exclaimed the vicar. “What a long time since we saw you! Have you just come?”
“I’m on a little holiday. How are you? And how is Mrs. Lashmar?”
Miss Bride had a soberly decisive way of speaking, and an aspect which corresponded therewith; her figure was rather short, well-balanced, apt for brisk movement; she held her head very straight, and regarded the world with a pair of dark eyes suggestive of anything but a sentimental nature. Her grey dress, black jacket, and felt hat trimmed with a little brown ribbon declared the practical woman, who thinks about her costume only just as much as is needful; her dark-brown hair was coiled in a plait just above the nape, as if neatly and definitely put out of the way. She looked neither more nor less than her age, which was eight and twenty. At first sight her features struck one as hard and unsympathetic, though tolerably regular; watching her as she talked or listened, one became aware of a mobility which gave large expressiveness, especially in the region of the eyebrows, which seemed to move with her every thought. Her lips were long, and ordinarily compressed in the line of conscious self-control. She had a very shapely neck, the skin white and delicate; her facial complexion was admirably pure and of warmish tint.
“And where are you living, Miss Bride?” asked Mr. Lashmar, regarding her with curiosity.
“At Hollingford; that is to say, near it. I am secretary to Lady Ogram—I don’t know whether you ever heard of her?”
“Ogram? I know the name. I am very glad indeed to hear that you have such a pleasant position. And your father? It is very long since I heard from him.”
“He has a curacy at Liverpool, and seems to be all right. My mother died about two years ago.”
The matter-of-fact tone in which this information was imparted caused Mr. Lashmar to glance at the speaker’s face. Though very little of an observer, he was comforted by an assurance that Miss Bride’s features were less impassive than her words. Indeed, the cold abruptness with which she spoke was sufficient proof of feeling roughly subdued.
Some six years had now elapsed since the girl’s father, after acting for a short time as curate to Mr. Lashmar, accepted a living in another county. The technical term, in this case, was rich in satiric meaning; Mr. Bride’s incumbency quickly reduced him to pauperism. At the end of the first twelvemonth in his rural benefice the unfortunate cleric made a calculation that he was legally responsible for rather more than twice the sum of money represented by his stipend and the offertories. The church needed a new roof; the parsonage was barely habitable for long lack of repairs; the church school lost its teacher through default of salary—and so on. With endless difficulty Mr. Bride escaped from his vicarage to freedom and semi-starvation, and deemed himself very lucky indeed when at length he regained levitical harbourage.
These things had his daughter watched with her intent dark eyes; Constance Bride did not feel kindly disposed towards the Church of England as by law established. She had seen her mother sink under penury and humiliation and all unmerited hardship; she had seen her father changed from a vigorous, hopeful, kindly man to an embittered pessimist. As for herself, sound health and a good endowment of brains enabled her to make a way in the world. Luckily, she was a sole child: her father managed to give her a decent education till she was old enough to live by teaching. But teaching was not her vocation. Looking round for possibilities, Constance hit upon the idea of studying pharmaceutics and becoming a dispenser; wherein, with long, steady effort, she at length succeeded. This project had already been shaped whilst the Brides were at Alverholme; Mrs. Lashmar had since heard of Constance as employed in the dispensary of a midland hospital.
“Hollingford?” remarked the vicar, as they walked on. “I think I remember that you have relatives there.”
“I was born there, and I have an old aunt still living in the town—she keeps a little baker’s shop.”
Mr. Lashmar, though a philosopher, was not used to this bluntness of revelation; it gave him a slight shock, evinced in a troublous rolling of the eyes.
“Ha! yes!—I trust you will dine with us this evening, Miss Bride?”
“Thank you, I can’t dine; I want to leave by an early evening train. But I should like to see Mrs. Lashmar, if she is at home.”
“She will be delighted. I must beg you to pardon me for leaving you—an appointment at the schools; but I will get home as soon as possible. Pray excuse me.”
“Why, of course, Mr. Lashmar. I haven’t forgotten the way to the vicarage.”
She pursued it, and in a few minutes rang the bell. Mrs. Lashmar was in the dining-room, busy with a female parishioner whose self-will in the treatment of infants’ maladies had given the vicar’s wife a great deal of trouble.
“It’s as plain as blessed daylight, mum,” the woman was exclaiming, “that this medicine don’t agree with her.”
“Mrs. Dibbs,” broke in the other severely, “you will allow me to be a better judge—what is it?”
The housemaid had opened the door to announce Miss Bride.
“Miss Bride?” echoed the lady in astonishment. “Very well; show her into the drawing-room.”
The visitor waited for nearly a quarter of an hour. She had placed herself on one of the least comfortable chairs, and sat there in a very stiff attitude, holding her umbrella across her knees. After a rather nervous survey of the room, (it had changed very little in appearance since her last visit six years ago), she fell into uneasy thoughtfulness, now and then looking impatiently towards the door. When the hostess at length appeared, she rose with deliberation, her lips just relaxed in a half-smile.
“So it is really you!” exclaimed Mrs. Lashmar, in a voice of forced welcome. “I thought you must have altogether forgotten us.”
“It’s the first time I have returned to Alverholme,” replied the other, in a contrasting tone of calmness.
“And what are you doing? Where are you living? Tell me all about yourself. Are you still at the hospital? You did get a place at a hospital, I think? We were told so.”
Mrs. Lashmar’s patronage was a little more patronizing than usual, her condescension one or two degrees more condescending. She had various reasons for regarding Constance Bride with disapproval, the least of them that sense of natural antipathy which was inevitable between two such women. In briefest sentences Miss Bride made known that she had given up dispensing two years ago, and was now acting as secretary to a baronet’s widow.
“A baronet’s widow?” repeated the hostess, with some emphasis of candid surprise. “Row did you manage that? Who is she?”
“An old friend of my family,” was the balanced reply. “Lady Ogram, of Rivenoak, near Hollingford.”
“Oh! Indeed! I wasn’t aware—”
Mrs. Lashmar thought better of her inclination to be trenchantly rude, and smoothed off into commonplaces. Presently the vicar entered, and found his wife conversing with the visitor more amiably than he had expected.
“You have seen Miss Bride already,” said Mrs. Lashmar. “I am trying to persuade her to stay over-night with us. Is it really impossible?”
Constance civilly but decidedly declined. Addressing herself to the vicar, she spoke with more ease and friendliness than hitherto; nevertheless, it was obvious that she counted the minutes dictated by decency for the prolongation of her stay. Once or twice her look wandered to a certain part of the wall where hung a framed photograph—a portrait of Dyce Lashmar at the age of one and twenty; she regarded it for an instant with cold fixity, as though it interested her not at all. Just as she was on the point of rising, there came a sound of wheels on the vicarage drive.
“Who’s that, I wonder?” said Mrs. Lashmar. “Why—surely it isn’t—?”
A voice from without had reached her ears; surprise and annoyance darkened her countenance.
“It’s certainly Dyce,” said the vicar, who for his part, recognized the voice with pleasure.
“Impossible! He said he was coming in a week’s time.”
Mr. Lashmar would not have cared to correct this statement, and remark was rendered superfluous by the opening of the door and the appearance of Dyce himself.
“Afraid I’m taking you rather at unawares,” said the young man, in a suave Oxford voice. “Unexpectedly I found myself free—”
His eyes fell upon Constance Bride, and for a moment he was mute; then he stepped towards her, and, with an air of peculiar frankness, of comrade-like understanding, extended his hand.
“How do you do, Miss Connie! Delighted to find you here—Mother, glad to see you.” Re touched Mrs. Lashmar’s forehead with his lips. “Well, father? Uncommonly pleasant to be at the vicarage again!”
Miss Bride had stood up, and was now advancing towards the hostess.
“You must go?” said Mrs. Lashmar, with her most agreeable smile.
“What, going?” exclaimed Dyce. “Why? Are you staying in the village?”
“No. I must catch a train.”
“’The six forty-five.”
“Why, then you have plenty of time! Mother, bid Miss Connie be seated; I haven’t had a moment’s talk with her; it’s absurd. Six forty-five? You needn’t leave here for twenty minutes. What a lucky thing that I came in just now.”
For certain ticks of the clock it was a doubtful matter whether Miss Bride would depart or remain. Glancing involuntarily at Mrs. Lashmar, she saw the gloom of resentment and hostility hover upon that lady’s countenance, and this proved decisive.
“I’ll have some tea, please,” cried the young man, cheerfully, as Constance with some abruptness resumed her seat. “How is your father, Miss Connie? Well? That’s right. And Mrs. Bride?”
“My mother is dead,” replied the girl, quite simply, looking away.
A soft murmur of pain escaped Dyce’s lips; he leaned forward, uttered gently a “Pray forgive me!” and was silent. The vicar interposed with a harmless remark about the flight of years.
In the moments when Dyce Lashmar was neither aware of being observed nor consciously occupied with the pressing problems of his own existence, his face expressed a natural amiability, inclining to pensiveness. The features were in no way remarkable; they missed the vigour of his father’s type without attaining the regularity which had given his mother a claim to good looks. Such a visage falls to the lot of numberless men born to keep themselves alive and to propagate their insignificance. But Dyce was not insignificant. As soon as his countenance lighted with animation, it revealed a character rich in various possibility, a vital force which, by its bright indefiniteness, made some appeal to the imagination. Often he had the air of a lyric enthusiast; often, that of a profound thinker; not seldom there came into his eyes a glint of stern energy which seemed a challenge to the world. Therewithal, nothing perceptibly histrionic; look or speak as he might, the young man exhaled an atmosphere of sincerity, and persuaded others because he seemed so thoroughly to have convinced himself.
He did not give the impression of high breeding. His Oxford voice, his easy self-possession, satisfied the social standard, but left a defect to the finer sense. Dyce had not the self-oblivion of entire courtesy; it seemed probable that he would often err in tact; a certain awkwardness marred his personal bearing, which aimed at the modern ideal of flowing unconstraint.
Sipping the cup of tea which his mother had handed to him, Dyce talked at large. Nothing, he declared, was equal to the delight of leaving town just at this moment of the year, when hedge and meadow were donning their brightest garments and the sky gleamed with its purest blue. He spoke in the tone of rapturous enjoyment, and yet one might have felt a doubt whether his sensibility was as keen as he professed or imagined; all the time, he appeared to be thinking of something else. Most of his remarks were addressed to Miss Bride, and with that manner of intimate friendliness which he alone of the family used towards their visitor. He inquired about the events of her life, and manifested a strong interest in the facts which Constance briefly repeated.
“Let me walk with you as far as the station,” he said, when the time came for her departure.
“Please don’t trouble,” Constance replied, with a quick glance at Mrs. Lashmar’s face, still resentful under the conventional smile.
Dyce, without more words, took his hat and accompanied her; the vicar went with them to the garden gate, courteous but obviously embarrassed.
“Pray remember me to your father, Miss Bride,” he said. “I should much like to hear from him.”
“It’s chilly this evening,” remarked Dyce, as he and his companion walked briskly away. “Are you going far?”
“But you’ll be travelling for two or three hours. What about your dinner?”
“Oh, I shall eat something when I get home.”
“Women are absurd about food,” exclaimed Dyce, with laughing impatience. “Most of you systematically starve yourselves, and wonder that you get all sorts of ailments. Why wouldn’t you stay at the vicarage to-night? I’m quite sure it would have made no difference if you had got back to Hollingford in the morning.”
“Perhaps not, but I don’t care much for staying at other people’s houses.”
Dyce examined his companion’s face. She did not meet his look, and bore it with some uneasiness. In the minds of both was a memory which would have accounted for much more constraint between them than apparently existed. Six years ago, in the days of late summer, when Dyce Lashmar was spending his vacation at the vicarage, and Connie Bride was making ready to go out into the world, they had been wont to see a good deal of each other, and to exhaust the topics of the time in long conversations, tending ever to a closer intimacy of thought and sentiment. The companionship was not very favourably regarded by Mr. Lashmar, and to the vicar’s wife was a source of angry apprehension. There came the evening when Dyce and Constance had to bid each other good-bye, with no near prospect of renewing their talks and rambles together. What might be in the girl’s thought, she alone knew; the young man, effusive in vein of friendship, seemed never to glance beyond a safe borderline, his emotions satisfied with intellectual communion. At the moment of shaking hands, they stood in a field behind the vicarage; dusk was falling and the spot secluded.—They parted, Constance in a bewilderment which was to last many a day; for Dyce had kissed her, and without a word was gone.
There followed no exchange of letters. From that hour to this the two had in no way communicated. Mr. Bride, somewhat offended by what he had seen and surmised of Mr. and Mrs. Lashmar’s disposition, held no correspondence with the vicar of Alverholme; his wife had never been on friendly terms with Mrs. Lashmar. How Dyce thought of that singular incident it was impossible to infer from his demeanour; Constance might well have supposed that he had forgotten all about it.
“Is your work interesting?” were his next words. “What does Lady Ogram go in for?”
“You prefer it to the other work?”
“It isn’t so hard, and it’s much more profitable.”
“By the bye, who is Lady Ogram?” asked Dyce, with a smiling glance.
“A remarkable old lady. Her husband died ten years ago; she has no children, and is very rich. I shouldn’t think there’s a worse-tempered person living, yet she has all sorts of good qualities. By birth, she belongs to the working class; by disposition she’s a violent aristocrat. I often hate her; at other times, I like her very much.”
Dyce listened with increasing attention.
“Has she any views?” he inquired.
“Oh, plenty!” Constance answered, with a dry little laugh.
“About social questions—that kind of thing?”
“I shouldn’t be surprised if she called herself a socialist.”
“That’s just what she does—when she thinks it will annoy people she dislikes.”
Dyce smiled meditatively.
“I should like to know her. Yes, I should very much like to know her. Could you manage it for me?”
Constance did not reply. She was comparing the Dyce Lashmar of to-day with him of the past, and trying to understand the change that had come about in his talk, his manner. It would have helped her had she known that, in the ripe experience of his seven and twentieth year, Dyce had arrived at certain conclusions with regard to women, and thereupon had based a method of practical behaviour towards them. Women, he held, had never been treated with elementary justice. To worship them was no less unfair than to hold them in contempt. The honest man, in our day, should regard a woman without the least bias of sexual prejudice; should view her simply as a fellow-being, who, according to circumstances, might or not be on his own plane. Away with all empty show and form, those relics of barbarism known as chivalry! He wished to discontinue even the habit of hat-doffing in female presence. Was not civility preserved between man and man without such idle form? Why not, then, between man and woman? Unable, as yet, to go the entire length of his principles in every-day life, he endeavoured, at all events, to cultivate in his intercourse with women a frankness of speech, a directness of bearing, beyond the usual. He shook hands as with one of his own sex, spine uncrooked; he greeted them with level voice, not as one who addresses a thing afraid of sound. To a girl or matron whom he liked, he said, in tone if not in phrase, “Let us be comrades.” In his opinion this tended notably to the purifying of the social atmosphere. It was the introduction of simple honesty into relations commonly marked—and corrupted—by every form of disingenuousness. Moreover, it was the great first step to that reconstruction of society at large which every thinker saw to be imperative and imminent.
But Constance Bride knew nothing of this, and in her ignorance could not but misinterpret the young man’s demeanor. She felt it to be brusque; she imagined it to imply a purposed oblivion of things in the past. Taken together with Mrs. Lashmar’s way of receiving her at the vicarage, it stirred in her heart and mind (already prone to bitterness) a resentment which, of all things, she shrank from betraying.
“Is Lady Ogram approachable?” Dyce asked, when his companion had walked a few paces without speaking. “Does she care to make new acquaintances?”
“It depends. She likes to know interesting people.”
“Well”—Dyce murmured a laugh—”perhaps she might think me interesting, in a way. Her subject is mine. I’m working at sociology; have been for a long time. I’m getting my ideas into shape, and I like to talk about them.”
“Do you write?” asked the girl, without raising her eyes to his.
“No. People write too much; we’re flooded with print. I’ve grown out of my old ambitions that way. The Greek philosophers taught by word of mouth, and it was better. I want to learn how to talk—to talk well—to communicate what I have to say in a few plain words. It saves time and money; I’m convinced, too, that it carries more weight. Everyone nowadays can write a book, and most people do; but how many can talk? The art is being utterly forgotten. Chatter and gabble and mumble—an abuse of language. What’s your view?”
“I think perhaps you are right.”
“Come, now, I’m glad to hear you say that. If I had time, I would tell you more; but here’s the station, and there’s the smoke of the train. We’ve cut it rather close. Across the line; you’ll have to run—sharp!”
They did so, reaching the platform as the train drew up. Dyce allowed his companion to open a carriage-door for herself. That was quite in accord with his principles, but perhaps he would for once have neglected them had he been sure by which class Miss Bride would travel. She entered the third.
“You wouldn’t care to introduce me to Lady Ogram?” he said, standing by the window, and looking straight into the girl’s eyes.
“I will if you wish,” she answered, meeting his look with hard steadiness and a frown as of pain.
“Many thanks! Rivenoak, Hollingford, the address? Suppose I call in a few days?”
“If you like.”
The train moved. Dyce bared his head, and, as he turned away, thought how contemptible was the practice.
Walking briskly against a cold wind, he busied his imagination about Lady Ogram. The picture he made to himself of this wealthy and original old lady was very fertile of suggestion; his sanguine temper bore him to heights of brilliant possibility. Dyce Lashmar had a genius for airy construction; much of his time was spent in deducing imaginary results from some half presented opportunity. As his fancy wrought, he walked faster and faster, and he reached the vicarage in a physical glow which corresponded to his scintillating state of mind.
Of Constance Bride he thought hardly at all. She did not interest him; her proximity left him cold. She might be a useful instrument; apart from his “method,” that was the light in which he regarded all the women he knew. Experience had taught him that he possessed a certain power over women of a certain kind; it seemed probable that Constance belonged to the class; but this was a fact which had no emotional bearing. With a moment’s idle wonder he remembered the circumstances of their former parting. He was then a boy, and who shall account for a boy’s momentary impulses? Constance was a practical sort of person, and in all likelihood thought no more of that foolish incident than he did.
“Why are you so eccentric in your movements, Dyce?” said Mrs. Lashmar, irritably, when he entered the drawing-room again. “You write one day that you’re coming in a week or two, and on the next here you are. How could you know that it was convenient to us to have you just now?”
“The Woolstan boy has a cold,” Dyce replied, “and I found myself free for a few days. I’m sorry to put you out.”
“Not at all. I say that it might have done.”
Dyce’s bearing to his mother was decently respectful, but in no way affectionate. The knowledge that she counted for little or nothing with him was an annoyance, rather than a distress, to Mrs. Lashmar. With tenderness she could dispense, but the loss of authority wounded her.
Dinner was a rather silent meal. The vicar seemed to be worrying about something even more than usual. When they had risen from table, Mrs. Lashmar made the remark which was always forthcoming on these occasions.
“So you are still doing nothing, Dyce?”
“I assure you, I’m very busy,” answered the young man, as one indulgent to an inferior understanding.
“So you always say. When did you see Lady Susan?”
“Oh, not for a long time.”
“What vexes me is, that you don’t make the slightest use of your opportunities. It’s really astonishing that, with your talents, you should be content to go on teaching children their A. B. C. You have no energy, Dyce, and no ambition. By this time you might have been in the diplomatic service, you might have been in Parliament. Are you going to waste your whole life?”
“That depends on the view one takes of life,” said Dyce, in a philosophical tone which he sometimes adopted—generally after dinner. “Why should one always be thinking about ‘getting on?’ It’s the vice of the time. Why should I elbow and hustle in a vulgar crowd? A friend of mine, Lord Dymchurch—”
“What! You have made friends with a lord?” cried Mrs. Lashmar, her face illumined.
“Why not?—I was going to say that Dymchurch, though he’s poor, and does nothing at all, is probably about the most distinguished man in the peerage. He is distinguished by nature, and that’s enough for him. You’d like Dymchurch, father.”
The vicar looked up from a fit of black brooding, and said “Ah! no doubt.” Mrs. Lashmar, learning the circumstances of Lord Dymchurch, took less pride in him, but went on to ask questions. Had his lordship no interest, which might serve a friend? Could he not present Dyce to more influential people.
“I should be ashamed to hint that kind of thing to him,” answered Dyce. “Don’t be so impatient, mother. If I am to do anything—in your sense of the word the opportunity will come. If it doesn’t, well, fate has ordered it so.”
“All I know is, Dyce, that you might be the coming man, and you’re content to be nobody at all.”
“The coming man! Well, perhaps, I am; who knows? At all events, it’s something to know that you believe in me. And it may be that you are not the only one.”
Later, Dyce and his father went into the study to smoke. The young man brought with him a large paperbacked volume which he had taken out of his travelling bag.
“Here’s a book I’m reading. A few days ago I happened to be at Williams & Norgates’. This caught my eyes, and a glance at a page or two interested me so much that I bought it at once. It would please you, father.”
“I’ve no time for reading nowadays,” sighed the vicar. “What is it?”
He took the volume, a philosophical work by a French writer, bearing recent date. Mr. Lashmar listlessly turned a few pages, whilst Dyce was filling and lighting his pipe.
“It’s uncommonly suggestive,” said Dyce, between puffs. “The best social theory I know. He calls his system Bio-sociology; a theory of society founded on the facts of biology—thoroughly scientific and convincing. Smashing socialism in the common sense that is, social democracy; but establishing a true socialism in harmony with the aristocratic principle. I’m sure you’d enjoy it. I fancy it’s just your view.”
“Here’s the central idea. No true sociology could be established before the facts of biology were known, as the one results from the other. In both, the ruling principle is that of association, with the evolution of a directing power. An animal is an association of cells. Every association implies division of labour. Now, progress in organic development means the slow constitution of an organ—the brain—which shall direct the body. So in society—an association of individuals, with slow constitution of a directing organ, called the Government. The problem of civilisation is to establish government on scientific principles—to pick out the fit for rule—to distinguish between the Multitude and the Select, and at the same time to balance their working. It is nonsense to talk about Equality. Evolution is engaged in cephalising the political aggregate—as it did the aggregate of cells in the animal organism. It makes for the differentiation of the Select and of the Crowd—that is to say, towards Inequality.”
“Very interesting,” murmured the vicar, who listened with an effort whilst mechanically loading his pipe.
“Isn’t it? And the ideas are well marked out; first the bio-sociological theory,—then the psychology and ethics which result from it. The book has given me a stronger impulse than anything I’ve read for years. It carries conviction with it. It clears one’s mind of all sorts of doubts and hesitations. I always kicked at the democratic idea; now I know that I was right.”
“Ah! Perhaps so. These questions are very difficult—By the bye, Dyce, I want to speak to you about a matter that has been rather troubling me of late. Let us get it over now, shall we?”
Dyce’s animated look faded under a shadow of uneasiness. He regarded the vicar steadily, with eyes which gathered apprehension.
“It’s very disagreeable,” pursued Mr. Lashmar, after puffing a pipe unlit. “I’m afraid it’ll be no less so to you than to me. I’ve postponed the necessity as long as I could. The fact is, Dyce, I’m getting pinched in my finances. Let me tell you just how matters stand.”
The son listened to an exposition of his father’s difficulties; he had his feet crossed, his head bent, and the pipe hanging from his mouth. At the first silence, he removed his pipe and said quietly:
“It’s plain that my allowance must stop. Not another word about that, father. You ought to have spoken before; I’ve been a burden to you.”
“No, no, my dear boy! I haven’t felt it till now. But, as you see, things begin to look awkward. Do you think you can manage?”
“Of course I can. Don’t trouble about me for a moment. I have my hundred and fifty a year from Mrs. Woolstan, and that’s quite enough for a bachelor. I shall pick up something else. In any case, I’ve no right to sponge on you; I’ve done it too long. If I had had the slightest suspicion—”
A sense of virtue lit up Dyce’s countenance again. Nothing was more agreeable to him than the uttering of generous sentiments. Having reassured his father, he launched into a larger optimism.
“Don’t Suppose that I have taken your money year after year without thinking about it. I couldn’t have gone on like that if I hadn’t felt sure that some day I should pay my debt. It’s natural enough that you and mother should feel a little disappointed about me, I seem to have done nothing, but, believe me, I am not idle. Money-making, I admit, has never been much in my mind; all the same, I shall have money enough one of these days, and before very long. Try to have faith in me. If it were necessary, I shouldn’t mind entering into an obligation to furnish such and such a sum yearly by when I am thirty years old. It’s a thing I never said to anyone, but I know perfectly well that a career—perhaps rather a brilliant one—is opening before me. I know it—just as one knows that one is in good health; it’s an intimate sense, needing no support of argument.”
“Of course I’m glad to hear you speak like that,” said the vicar, venturing only a glance at his son’s face.
“Don’t, I beg, worry about your affairs,” pursued Dyce, with kindling eye. “Cut off my supplies, and go quietly on.” He stretched out a soothing hand, palm downwards. “The responsibility for the future is mine; from to-night I take it upon myself.”
Much more in the same vein did Dyce pour forth, obviously believing every word he said, and deriving great satisfaction from the sound of his praises. He went to bed, at length, in such a self-approving frame of mind that no sooner had he laid his head on the pillow than sweet sleep lapped him about, and he knew nothing more till the sunlight shimmered at his window.
A letter awaited him at the breakfast table; it had been forwarded from his London address, and he knew at a glance that it came from Mrs. Woolstan, the mother of his pupil. The lady, dating from a house at West Hampstead, wrote thus:
“Dear Mr. Lashmar,
“You will be surprised to hear from me so soon again. I particularly want to see you. Something has happened which we must talk over at once. I shall be alone tomorrow afternoon. Do come if you possibly can.
Dyce had come down in a mood less cheerful than that of over-night. As happened sometimes, he had slept too soundly; his head was not quite clear, and his nerves felt rather unsteady. This note from Mrs. Woolstan, he knew not why, caused him uneasiness; a vague prevision of ill was upon him as he read.
He had intended passing the day at Alverholme, and, on the morrow, travelling to Hollingford. Now he felt no inclination to hazard a call upon Lady Ogram; he would return to London forthwith.
“No bad news, I hope?” said his father, when this purpose was announced.
“Mrs. Woolstan wants me back sooner than I expected, that’s all.”
His mother’s lips curled disdainfully. To be at the beck and call of a Mrs. Woolstan, seemed to her an ignoble thing. However, she had learnt the tenor of Dyce’s discourse of the evening before, and tried once more to see a radiance in his future.
Hair the hue of an autumn elm-leaf; eyes green or blue, as the light fell upon them; a long, thin face, faintly freckled over its creamy pallor, with narrow arch of eyebrow, indifferent nose, childlike lips and a small, pointed chin;—thus may one suggest the portrait of Iris Woolstan. When Dyce Lashmar stepped into her drawing-room, she had the air of one who has been impatiently expectant. Her eyes widened in a smile of nervous pleasure; she sprang up, and offered her hand before the visitor was near enough to take it.
“So kind of you to come! I was half afraid you might have gone out of town not that it would have mattered. I did really want to see you as soon as possible, but Monday would have done just as well.”
She spoke rapidly in a high, but not shrill, voice, with a drawing-in of the breath before and after her speech, and a nervous little pant between the sentences, her bosom fluttering like that of a frightened bird.
“As a matter of fact,” cried Lashmar, with brusque cordiality, dropping into a chair before his hostess was seated, “I had gone out of town. I got your letter at Alverholme, and came back again sooner than I intended.”
“Oh! Oh!” panted Mrs. Woolstan, on her highest note, “I shall never forgive myself! Why didn’t you telegraph—or just do nothing at all, and come when you were ready? Oh! When there wasn’t the least hurry.”
“Then why did you write as if something alarming had happened?” cried the other, laughing, as he crossed his legs, and laid his silk hat aside.
“Oh, did I? I’m sure I didn’t mean to. There’s nothing alarming at all—at least—that is to say—well, it’s something troublesome and disagreeable and very unexpected, and I’m rather afraid you won’t like it. But we’ve plenty of time to talk about it. I’m at home to nobody else—It was really unkind of you to come back in a hurry! Besides, it’s against your principles. You wouldn’t have done that if I had been a man.”
“A man would have said just what he meant,” replied Dyce, smiling at her with kindly superiority. “He wouldn’t have put me in doubt.”
“No, no! But did I really write like that? I thought it was just a plain little business-like note—indeed I did! It will be a lesson to me—indeed it will! And how did you find your people? All well, I hope?”
“Well in one way; in another—but I’ll tell you about that presently.”
Dyce had known Mrs. Woolstan for about a couple of years; it was in the second twelvemonth of their acquaintance that he matured his method with regard to women, and since then he had not only practised it freely, but had often discussed it, with her. Iris gave the method her entire approval, and hailed it as the beginning of a new era for her sex. She imagined that her own demeanour was no less direct and unconstrained than that of the philosopher himself; in reality, the difference was considerable. Though several years older than Dyce—her age being thirty-four—she showed nothing of the seniority in her manner towards him, which, for all its impulsiveness, had a noticeable deference, at moments something of subdued homage.
“You don’t mean to say you have bad news?” she exclaimed, palpitating. “You, too?”
“Why, then you have something of the same kind to tell me?” said Dyce, gazing at her anxiously.
“Tell me your’s first—please do!”
“No. It’s nothing very important. So say what you’ve got to say, and be quick about it—come!”
Mrs. Woolstan’s bosom rose and fell rapidly as she collected her thoughts. Unconventional as were the terms in which Lashmar addressed her, they carried no suggestion of an intimacy which passed the limits of friendship. When his eyes turned to her, their look was unemotional, purely speculative, and in general spoke without looking at her at all.
“It’s something about Mr. Wrybolt,” Iris began, with a face of distress. “You know he is my trustee—I told you, didn’t I? I see him very seldom, and we don’t take much interest in each other; he’s nothing but a man of business, the kind I detest; he can’t talk of anything but money and shares and wretched things of that sort. But you know him you understand.”
The name of Wrybolt set before Dyce’s mind a middle-aged man, red-necked, heavy of eyelid, with a rather punctilious hearing and authoritative mode of speech. They had met only once, here at Mrs. Woolstan’s house.
“I’m sure I don’t know why, but just lately he’s begun to make inquiries about Len, and to ask when I meant to send him to school. Of course I told him that Len was doing very well indeed, and that I didn’t see the slightest necessity for making a change at all events just yet. Well, yesterday he came, and said he wanted to see the boy. Len was in bed—he’s in bed still, though his cold’s much better and Mr. Wrybolt would go up to his room, and talk to him. When he came down again, you know I’m going to tell you the whole truth, and of course you won’t mind it—he began talking in a very nasty way—he has a nasty way when he likes. ‘Look here, Mrs. Woolstan,’ he said, ‘Leonard doesn’t seem to me to be doing well at all. I asked him one or two questions in simple arithmetic, and he couldn’t answer.’ ‘Well,’ I said, ‘for one thing Len isn’t well, and it isn’t the right time to examine a boy; and then arithmetic isn’t his subject; he hasn’t that kind of mind.’ But he wouldn’t listen, and the next thing he said was still nastier. ‘Do you know,’ he said, ‘that the boy is being taught atheism?’—Well, what could I answer? I got rather angry, and said that Len’s religious teaching was my own affair, and I couldn’t see what he had to do with it; and besides, that Len wasn’t being taught atheism, but that people who were not in the habit of thinking Philosophically couldn’t be expected to understand such things. I think that was rather good, wasn’t it? Didn’t I put it rather well?”
Iris panted in expectation of approval. But merely a nod was vouchsafed to her.
“Go on,” said Dyce, drily.
“You’re not vexed, I hope? I’m going to be quite frank, you know, just as you like people to be. Well, Mr. Wrybolt went on, and would have it that Len was badly taught and altogether led in the wrong way, and that he’d grow up an immoral and an irreligious man. ‘You must remember, Mr. Wrybolt,’ I said, rather severely, ‘that people’s ideas about morality and religion differ very much, and I can’t think you have sufficiently studied the subject to be capable of understanding my point of view’—It was rather severe, wasn’t it? But I think it was rather well put.”
“Go on,” said Dyce, with another nod.
“Well now, I’m quite sure you’ll understand me. We do generally understand each other. You see, I was put into a most difficult position. Mr. Wrybolt is my trustee, and he has to look after Len—though he’s never given a thought to him till now—and he’s a man of influence; that is to say, in his own wretched, vulgar world, but unfortunately it’s a kind of influence one’s obliged to think about. Len, you know, is just eleven, and one has to begin to think about his future, and it isn’t as if he was going to be rich and could do as he liked. I’m sure you’ll understand me. With a man like Mr. Wrybolt—”
“Not so many words,” interposed the listener, smiling rather disdainfully. “I see the upshot of it all. You promised to send Len to school.”
Mrs. Woolstan panted and fluttered and regarded Lashmar with eyes of agitated appeal.
“If you think I ought to have held out—please say just what you think—let us be quite frank and comradelike with each other—I can write to Mr. Wrybolt.”—
“Tell me plainly,” said Dyce, leaning towards her. “What was your reason for giving way at once? You really think, don’t you, that it will be better for the boy?”
“Oh, how could I think so, Mr. Lashmar! You know what a high opinion—”
“Exactly. I am quite ready to believe all that. But you will be easier in mind with Len at school, taught in the ordinary way? Now be honest—make an effort.”
“I—perhaps—one has to think of a boy’s future—”
The pale face was suffused with rose, and for a moment looked pretty in its half-tearful embarrassment.
“Good. That’s all right. We’ll talk no more of it.”
There was a brief silence. Dyce gazed slowly about him. His eyes fell on nothing of particular value, nothing at all unusual in the drawing-room of a small house of middle-suburb type. There were autotypes and etchings and photographs; there was good, comfortable furniture; the piano stood for more than mere ornament, as Mrs. Woolstan had some skill in music. Iris’s widowhood was of five years’ duration. At two and twenty she had married a government-office clerk, a man nearly twice her age, exasperated by routine and lack of advancement; on her part it was a marriage of generosity; she did not love the man, but was touched by his railing against fate, and fancied she might be able to aid his ambitions. Woolstan talked of a possible secretaryship under the chief of his department; he imagined himself gifted for diplomacy, lacking only the chance to become a power in statecraft. But when Iris had given herself and her six hundred a year, she soon remarked a decline in her husband’s aspiration. Presently Woolstan began to complain of an ailment, the result of arduous labour and of disillusion, which might make it imperative for him to retire from the monotonous toil of the Civil Service; before long, he withdrew to a pleasant cottage in Surrey, where he was to lead a studious life and compose a great political work. The man had, in fact, an organic disorder, which proved fatal to him before he could quite decide whether to write his book on foolscap or on quarto paper. Mrs. Woolstan devoted herself to her child, until, when Leonard was nine, she entrusted him to a tutor very highly spoken of by friends of hers, a young Oxford man, capable not only of instructing the boy in the most efficient way, but of training whatever force and originality his character might possess. She paid a hundred and fifty pounds a year for these invaluable services—in itself not a large stipend, but large in proportion to her income. And Iris had never grudged the expenditure, for in Dyce Lashmar she found, not merely a tutor for her son, but a director of her own mind and conscience. Under Dyce’s influence she had read or tried to read—many instructive books; he had fostered, guided, elevated her native enthusiasm; he had emancipated her soul. These, at all events, were the terms in which Iris herself was wont to describe the results of their friendship, and she was eminently a sincere woman, ever striving to rise above the weakness, the disingenuousness, of her sex.
“If you knew how it pains me!” she murmured, stealing a glance at Lashmar. “But of course it won’t make any difference—between us.”
“Oh, I hope not. Why should it?” said Dyce, absently. “Now I’ll tell you something that has happened since I saw you last.”
“Yes—yes—your own news! Oh, I’m afraid it is something bad!”
“Perhaps not. I rather think I’m at a crisis in my life—probably the crisis. I shouldn’t wonder if these things prove to have happened just at the right time. My news is this. Things are going rather badly down at the vicarage. There’s serious diminution of income, which I knew nothing about. And the end of it is, that I mustn’t count on any more supplies; they have no more money to spare for me. You see, I am thoroughly independent.”
He laughed; but Mrs. Woolstan gazed at him in dismay.
“Oh! Oh! How very serious! What a dreadful thing!”
“Pooh! Not at all. That’s a very feminine way of talking.”
“I’m afraid it is. I didn’t mean to use such expressions. But really—what are you going to do?”
“That’ll have to be thought about.”
Iris, with fluttering bosom, leaned forward.
“You’ll talk it over with me? You’ll treat me as a real friend—just like a man friend? You know how often you have promised to.”
“I shall certainly ask your advice.”
“Oh! that’s kind, that’s good of you! We’ll talk it over very seriously.”
How many hours had they spent in what Iris deemed “serious” conversation? When Dyce stayed to luncheon, as he did about once a week, the talk was often prolonged to tea-time. Subjects of transcendent importance were discussed with the most hopeful amplitude. Mrs. Woolstan could not be satisfied with personal culture; her conscience was uneasy about the destinies of mankind; she took to herself the sorrows of the race, and burned with zeal for the great causes of civilisation. Vast theories were tossed about between them; they surveyed the universe from the origin to the end of all things. Of course it was Dyce who led the way in speculation; Iris caught at everything he propounded with breathless fervour and a resolute liberality of mind, determined to be afraid of no hypothesis. Oh, the afternoons of endless talk! Iris felt that this was indeed to live the higher life.
“By the bye,” fell from Lashmar, musingly, “did you ever hear of a Lady Ogram?”
“I seem to know the name,” answered Mrs. Woolstan, keenly attentive. “Ogram?—Yes, of course; I have heard Mrs. Toplady speak of her; but I know nothing more. Who is she? What about her?”
A maidservant entered with the tea-tray. Dyce lay back in his chair, gazing vacantly, until his hostess offered him a cup of tea. As he bent forward to take it, his eyes for a moment dwelt with unusual intentness on the face and figure of Iris Woolstan. Then, as he sipped, he again grew absent-minded. Iris, too, was absorbed in thought.
“You were speaking of Lady Ogram,” she resumed, gently.
“Yes. A friend of mine down at Alverholme knows her very well, and thought I might like to meet her. I half think I should. She lives at Hollingford; a rich old woman, going in a good deal for social questions. A widow, no children. Who knows?” he added, raising his, eyebrows and looking straight at Iris. “She might interest herself in—in my view of things.”
“She might,” replied the listener, as if overcoming a slight reluctance. “Of course it all depends on her own views.”
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